Watching that video (from that documentary John did about being gay) I’ve started crying again. I watch Scott and John together and I can’t help but to smile so widely as I can see how much they love each-other.
Then from that I start to think about those people ..those ignorant, aweful, terrible people who see that and think “disgusting” or “that’s wrong”. They can’t past the fact that it’s two men, and ignore anything else.
So basically, if you are a man and you have feelings for and have fallen in love with another man that is not allowed, just ..because. ??
How can parents say to their children “I just want you to be happy” but then put a condition on that saying “as long as it’s not with the same sex because that is wrong and our family would be shamed”. First off, who gives a flying f*k what other people think of your family, their opinion is not important (a little hypocritical coming from me considering I suffer from major depression due to my phobia of judgement, and all I do is worry about what people think ..but I really wish I didn’t because it really ruining my life).
Anyway, yea, who cares if your child is gay! They can’t control who they’re attracted to! So thinking about that poor child who has to hide their true feelings because they were told growing up you shouldn’t feel that way and they aren’t allowed to feel that way, sends me into a fit of tears.
I know what falling in love is like. When all you can think of is them; You want nothing more than to be with them every moment of every day; You’re mood picks up, no matter what’s going on in your life, the moment you hear from them, etc. But they are told they have to bury these feelings and have to suffer through them until they “fall for” someone of the opposite sex (and if you’re gay, that just won’t happen, so that how all these gay people end up in straight relationships for the rest of their lives, just to make everyone else around them happy, but really they are miserable).
If I ever have children I’m going to make sure that they know I will be there for them no matter what. I’ll make sure they know that all that matters to me is their happiness and whether they fall for a man or a women, that is not important just as long as they are happy. I’ll be ecstatic for them no matter their sexual orientation for finding someone they love because some poor souls never find that in their lives and die alone; so I feel if you find love, you better embrace it, and ignore what others say about it. What’s important how it makes you feel.
You only have one life and you deserve to be happy. You’re living it for yourself, not anyone else.
Sorry about that … rant over. :’-( Now I really need a box of tissues and a hug, but got no one to do that and I’m not about to go searching for kleenex in my house right now with my red face and tear-stained cheeks.